Thanksgiving morning began with an exchange or greetings near and far with family members. Reality however was that the emptiness and hole that resides deep inside my heart is where my morning began as I was in bed opening my eyes like I do every morning knowing that my child is not back in my life yet. She is still out there on her own course of addiction not surrendering to get help. My body ...
refreshed from sleep, sits up and as I slide my legs off the side of the bed, my feet hit the floor like cement. This weight of sadness and emptiness will drag me through the day and feel heavier with memory that enters into my mind of when she was healthy and our holiday pasts were filled with joy and happiness.
I am a Heartbroken mother of an adult child that is an addict. My heart aches for my daughter to be in our lives again.
Dinner out at a local restaurant has been a resort to lift the low, but being surrounded by other families sitting smiling, talking and sharing the day is almost too much to endure....because what I see and want is what they have...being TOGETHER!
Blessings...I am not alone. I have a wonderful husband and I am raising my daugther's beautiful and healthy daugther...my grand-daughter that is sitting across from me talking, smiling, laughing and we are engaged as a famliy!
I AM a mother of an adult child that is and addict. I am blessed because life goes on for me. I will endure and I will not give up.
Thank you Alanon and my family and friends that have supported me and provided me with the insight to know to let go...let God.
The weight is lessened and the darkness becomes light when I give my fears to my higher power and keep my soul filled with faith.
Don't stay alone and let the darkness and heaviness of your child's addiction keep you in an unhealthy place. Seek life and support.
Stop blaming what you could have done. I WAS a good mother! I AM still a good mother! I AM an AMAZING grand-mother, wife, sister, daughter, friend, co-worker, and human being. I will live today, continue to love and pray.
Peace!
I am a Heartbroken mother of an adult child that is an addict. My heart aches for my daughter to be in our lives again.
Dinner out at a local restaurant has been a resort to lift the low, but being surrounded by other families sitting smiling, talking and sharing the day is almost too much to endure....because what I see and want is what they have...being TOGETHER!
Blessings...I am not alone. I have a wonderful husband and I am raising my daugther's beautiful and healthy daugther...my grand-daughter that is sitting across from me talking, smiling, laughing and we are engaged as a famliy!
I AM a mother of an adult child that is and addict. I am blessed because life goes on for me. I will endure and I will not give up.
Thank you Alanon and my family and friends that have supported me and provided me with the insight to know to let go...let God.
The weight is lessened and the darkness becomes light when I give my fears to my higher power and keep my soul filled with faith.
Don't stay alone and let the darkness and heaviness of your child's addiction keep you in an unhealthy place. Seek life and support.
Stop blaming what you could have done. I WAS a good mother! I AM still a good mother! I AM an AMAZING grand-mother, wife, sister, daughter, friend, co-worker, and human being. I will live today, continue to love and pray.
Peace!
Posted on my FB paged on 11/25/11.
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