Dear Daughter

Dear Daughter,

How is your weekend going?  Mine was really nice.

We took your daughter out last night to a Halloween event and she had so much fun!  So hard to believe she is a teenager now. 

As we walked around in the dark at the event with the ghoulish atmosphere of Halloween all around us, I imagined you with us sharing in such a fun time.  How great it would have been to see you walking with us and having her cling to you when she got scared, as she did me. 

When took lots of photos as we always do to save them as a memory.

That night we stopped for burgers and as we ate I opened my phone and brought up the pictures we took.  Your daughter looks so much like you.  Smiling over the pictures and seeing her stare at them, I wonder if she images too how great it would have been if her Mommy was in those photos with us.  Remembering your smile and laugh and wishing so that you could be.

How did you spend your night last night?  Did you light up your meth pipe and deeply inhale and get high?  Did you pour yourself glass after glass of liquor so you can feel good all over?

When I stop to think of you now and what you might be doing, those are the images that come into my mind.  Making all your problems go away so that you don’t have to remember that your new family is a white rock that you crush up and smoke and a bottle called whatever.

Well, we are living our lives and enjoying each day.  Wish you could tell your new family they suck and goodbye and come join us.  We are praying each day to God that one day that will happen.

Love you today and always my daughter.  Miss you!

Mom